Dreaming Out Loud

This post title is taken from one of One Republic‘s song, i’m not really a big fan of this band, but on last holiday my little sister gave me their albums, and it’s not so bad. And i think this title is kinda appropriate to me :P why is that? Hmm, what i want to write below is some sort of saucy entry, so if my dear friend Sanny is reading this, i must warn u dear..yes i know what you are going to say…. “There’s so much happiness out there other than your partner” …haha.

Well it started with a couple quotes that i read, it just came to me those quotes, i didn’t search for it online nor read some romantic books only to look for romantic quote. I know i’ve read it somewhere, i think it’s Shakespeare or something. Anyway what are those quotes and what it has had to do with me and how it has changed my thoughts?

First quotes is “Expectation is the root of all heartache“. I’m looking back to my life, i always feel empty inside, insecure (this one is lately), and what else..it’s like i’m missing something but i don’t know what and i don’t know why either. If i think about this i can’t find what it is because i already have it all. But no, not all. I realised that i’m always expecting something from someone, for example from my parents, i expected them to accept my partner. Or i expected my partner to marry me..this is just silly. I fulfilled my head with promises and plans and hopes which i don’t have control to any of them. What is the point of expecting it from them? Oh i know..to get disappointed. Therefore, i don’t expect anything from anyone. Anyone i mean anyone but God.

Second quotes is “Don’t rush love because even in fairytale happy ending always takes on the last page“. This quotes is specifically pointing to one subject. Forget the fairytale, i dont believe in fairytales, i realised again that this subject had always been controlling me in every aspect of my life. Why do i feel so insecure? Afraid that he will leave me? Well he had tried. But again what is the point of rushing him? “If a guy really loves a girl the only thing he wants to change is her last name“. That is another quote. IF he really is the one for me so there’s no point of rushing him. He has to do that on his own, without interfering outsider like myself. Besides he had made his point of his hesitation of this relationship, so i don’t rush love, i don’t rush him into love. I believe that when the time is right everything will be just like it should be on my last page. I can just tell, whoever it is.

So yes, i’ve been dreaming out loud because i cant find a puzzle to fit into piece of apart of me. But now i am just trying to enjoy my pages, i’ve learnt that life is not a competition, whether one is happier than another or not. Just try to make the most of it and you will be trully happy… =)

Photo Credit: Rajesh Kunnath 

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September 19, 2010 / 7:22 pm
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